i dont mean to...

when im far away from home i wish that i was home buy now;
when im bac at home i wished that i was back in campus around all my friends.
when im bac at home it feels really different than being in campus;
being bac home there are a lot more stuff to do but that is jus seems so;
all i get to do everyday is sit at home and do nothing but be online/watch some tv/ FB-ing;
i always wonder how to sustain friendships;
as im the type of girl that dislikes being all alone.
looking a friend's everyday updates make me feel more invisible.
that i will not deny;
sometime i even wonder am i thinking too much?
do other ppl feel the same way as i do?
more and more questions pop up in my head
i tend to feel alone whenever im back at home;
that makes me want to go bac to campus even more.
everyone's personality is built up from young;
from expereience;
from parents' teachings;
from education;
from ppl they mix with;
i dont know.
i get so confused then emotional sometime thinking of these questions;
different people live different kinds of lifestyle,
ppl say that some of them seem to look happy but they arent on the inside;
is it true?
but some ppl that is happy is really happy but they tend to look for problems not knowing how lucky they ar...
is it true to day so?
how are we suppose to sort out our lifes to make it the fullest?
to be happy?
to be rich?
or to be so buzy that someone dont even hav time to breathe?
when does a person feel lonely?
for me;
when i really have nothing to do and spend the whole day doing the same thing over and over again.



love you me ah gong.
-xoxoxo-