as i was packing~

feeling kinda moody now

eventhough tomorow i will be on my way bac home

and today....the day that we all have been waiting for to come to an end

we are happy peeps as we already finish presentations and one final exam*discard the assignments not done!!!!*

buthen tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow

i will be well on my way bac to mummy and dad

buthen me ah gong will have to spend his time in this jungle still

i feel bad

i feel guilty

for not having the time to accompany him

din even think of leaving one more day off b4 leaving to go bac to accompany baby to get his stuff bough....@@

argh....

I feel bad bABy....

buthen i think i know that you will make yourself comfortable wherever you are

darling

u are the person that i will need to worry least....

not studying wise though><

going back this trip, i even have to carry a recycle bag for me to put all my books!!!

dang it dang it dang it!!!

has studying have to be this HARD???!!!

just now as me roomie and i were packing to go bac

we were talking about satisfying human needs

STILL

HUMANS CANT BE SATISFIED!!!

its just that simple....

when you want something and you have already gotten it

you will tend to think that other ppl that has it looks better on them or

theirs are much nicer and more expensive

@@

faints really

me myself i also tend to think A LOT

but still as long as it doesnt effect much its fine=)

this is us taken yesterday on the 26th

cutie darling was acting cheeky

love you to bits me ah gong

take care of yourself well aites

remember to study too

dont oni play play and ARCHERY kays

-xoxoxo--lots and lots of <3>

u dont kno~

i have already tried my best

and im still trying

that is all i can tell you

everything i do seems wrong

from wat i wear till where i go irll wat i say

u are still not satisfied?

what am i to do??

please do know that i am who i am and it takes time for me to change

at least till your acceptable standard...

what am i to do what am i to do...

on and on

i still feel that im not that up to standard

i am not the kind of person that has flaws that u cant accept

T.T

i just hope u wud understand that all

its 12 in the middle of the night

the weather today was almost like how i felt for the first half of the day

-moody-

got into a little unwanted misunderstanding with me ah gong

then

still i have to face that someone!!!

but now we are busy giving ourself assignments and presentation

no time to think at all

and

me ah gong and i are good...^^

thank you

thank you

and thank you....

ILY MUCH BABY KL

-XOXOX0-

stop being a bitch...bithch

you have to make me go through this each and every YEAR

i feel like im your pray or something

peeking and peepping

i Hate WHAT YOU DO!!!

i th0ught things were changing

been trying very hard to adapt but nope i guess it requires more than that!!!

WTF seriously..non stop behaving like

is not yr life that gets ruined...u ruin other ppl's life

every night the same things happen

i dont want my life to oly revolve around u and yr SHITTY behaviour

i have my loved ones my own problem to think

so STOP shitting shit!!!

and i bet MINDING YOUR OWN BIZ is not anywhere in your vocab

or simply u and yr ppls dont apply to that

but please have some respect

doesnt mean that u are the greatest or u WILL be the greatest

trying to spoil everyone's life

u talk about other ppl

but what about u yrslf!!!

BITCH!!!

i really pray and hope i will be able to control my anger, not influenced by U

cause its not worth it

the feeling of having a heartache i will nvr get numb

it just feels like a rock that is pressing against your heart

and

crying out wont help...cause it doesnt solve ANYTHING

UNLESS U DISSAPEAR!!!

f***!!!

put the problems aside baby

i love you very much

-xoxoxo-

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bonjour from kedah！！！

welcome to matchstickbaby's blog^^

latest pic update!!!

helo from The Regency,Kedah=)

our family picha,luv me gurls

love me ah gong too^^

tks to wantheng dear for this pic

<3>

our SS moments..tks for being silly with me,me ah gong XD

enjoyed myself much that day with the accompaniment of all of u

may our friendship last forever

as true friends are hard to find

i will cherish every single detail

-xoxoxo-

am i or am i not~thats all to it

by reading other bloggers blog posts it makes me think from where they get the talent to do what they do, where do they get all the resources from especially MONEY...

they take pretty pictures, go to the in-nest party, meet the famous celebs, what ever that cost money they are in!!!

okay...im going to rant a little here so let me be...

i am here already for 2 years but still i have to admit i am still no use to being here

the more i read what is going on in the outside world,what happens in my friend's life

i kinda get agitated much...

sometimes i think to myself IF i had the amount of money i would be able to do what ever, seriously whatever my heart wants to do!!!

when i think of getting something new all do is THINK

think of what are the consequences to it

wanna kno an example???

this i have been thinking for like a year~

camera-laptop-externals

it spells money money and more money, call me a miser *eventhough* i am one sometimes...>.<

but i cant afford to spend 30 bucks on a shirt that i can only wear for like 4 times in a year since that i am stuck in this jungle wit loads of rules that i had never heard of and think that it is unnecessary...let me ask you...since when dorm rules includes wearing decent clothes???@@

already during we have to obey uni rules that is to wear formal all the time unless it is after 5 we are allowed to wear track suits>.<>BORING!!!

argh!!!

but despite all i am trying really hard to just enjoy the whole process

be myself,understand others,do my best looking 'dumb' THAT I HATE MOST!!!

out of a hundred days there are like 75 days i envy other ppl's life~

me ah gong tells me: just be yourself,need not to compare with other people,don't make yourself miserable by comparing yr life with others...you are you and you are not the other people,everything can be worked out

so...i shall start telling myself to look forward to my goals...graduate find a job have a family(with you dearest)

thats all from me for now

-lots of move from me-

-to you me ah gong-

-and to my family that i miss loads and loads-

-xoxoxo-

try to be selflless a bit can??

over and over again

it happens everytime

eventhough u are well aware

still u dont care

over and over again

you and yr selfish attitude

causes every else's life misarable

still u dont care

another day has arrived

your actions are still the same

dare not suggest to you

hate the way you stare

on the good days

all is good, all is good

on the bad days

i go may way u dont even come close

a lot is going on

mind is spinning round

wishes after wishes

still no changes, no sound

-love always-

love you ah gong

i can post all day and nite!!!

yup yup

i am able to update a post every single day since like a week ago??

that because

finally our dorm/hostel/watever u wanna call it

has provided us internet line!!!

woots to that!!!

on to another story

on the 31st will be Halloween day!!

and on the 30th lai yee is making a dinner/lunch do

i so wanna go back

but first i will have to see if i can make it bac or not

my to do list???

1.job interview resume-not done

2. french quiz-not studied

3. french presentation- no done

4. executive meeting bp comm-not done

5. rehearse for bp comm-nvr done!!!>.<

see

still have a long long list before i can think of going bac and enjoying

but still going bac doesnt mean that it is a holiday though

it suppose to be a 'STUDY WEEK'

ehem ehem

but well we kno all students

study week arent really for studying rite*winks

XD

well then gtg

stopping here now

sek sai lei hgo ge ah gong

=)

xoxoxo

missing good food @@

being here in the jungle is sometimes quite frustratingselection of foods is limited

transportation is also limited

补品for us girls is limited

every other things you name it, also limited

what is not limited here are cats, cockroaches, monkeys, insects and other creepy

crawlies...

everytime when i miss home i will look back to all my photos taken back at home

and i came across this pile of pictures taken right before i came bac after the raya holidays

3 yee treated us to a hotel's japanese buffet lunch

it was yummy

atmosphere was great

but we kinda have a sort of roasted smell on us

i shall now post a few of the pic taken on that day

oh so memorable the lunch

and to add to it all in all the 6 of us almost had 1000 bucks worth of salmon

*kidd*

but still it was a lot lot.....

so, enjoy the pics^^

me mummy's home made 'one ton'

specially made oni porky with mushrooms 'one ton' with yummy chicken soup*drools*

edwin kor and i after mummum session

so satisfied^^

mr. alun and i

for now...i shall oni post these few pics

i will put the rest up wen i am off the hook from all the assignments and presentations and assignments and work and work and work and more work!!!>.<

till then,

i love you me ah gong

always and always

study hard for the exam tomoro ya

-jia you jia you-

-xoxoxo-

let's HOSPITALI-TEA!!!

me ah gong and i

and this is by far our best photo

i am really in love with this pic of us

-credits to wan theng liang lui-

well this is she

she was psrt of our AJK as well

my right hand gurl

really appreciate her help lots and lots

and also not to forget her roomies as well

that sacrificed lots

just to finish wat they need to do

to make this happen

our lovely tutor that we love to bits

i feel bad for kinda putting her in trouble

but she is kind hearted enough

all she cares is US

her students

-so so sweet-

well

another pic of us two

this was taken on stage

that nite we didn't get to take much pics though

he-had to stick his bum on the VVIP chair

she-had to run around like a mad woman

so

pictures were out of da place

>.<

last minute pic with roomie

ping

luckily we had time to get one last pic

before rushing bac again

if not we were going to be extra charged

@.@

well...i dont think the line permits me to upload more photos already lar....

thats it for now then....

nitey nites for now!!!

-love you me ah gong-

lots and lots and lots <3

1/10/2010 has passed

for the past 3 months me ah gong and i have been scrambling around preparing for out Hospitality Nite for the graduating seniors

and i can finally say now that ist is past tense already...

even so, there is still lots and lots of after issues to deal with

there are post-mortem

finding causes for issues

finding the source of the problems

and also finding solutions

just in case next time we face the same thing again

next thing is something that is well memorable for all of us

we have this lovely tutor that loves us so much

that she takes up responsibility that is not in her hands or

anything that she can change alone

i felt very frustrated all throughout the preparation of making this dinner happen

and to make things worst on that night itself things went way off track

it wasnt really major major problems

its just that when you have people that is working with you

is not working together with you

and you have to manage things all by yourself

and when everything goes wrong

all the problems are on your shoulder

as much as i want that night to run smoothly and all

for both me ah gong as well as our lovely tutor

i really din want to screw things up

and even if there were issues i wanted to just scrape it away so that is wasn't noticeable

but......

all of a sudden in the middle of the event

wen things were going quite well

something had to start to happen

the flow of the activity, prizes give away, king and queen of the nite, and the rest rest...>.<

one problem came after the other

and then.....

i couldn't keep it to myself anymore

i BURST-ed!!!

but well

what has been done has been done

and just two days ago

we went over to our tutor's office to apologize to her for making/causing trouble

i kinda have the opinion that the nite kinda failed

and our tutor told us

'not to worry'

'do you know that i you think that you fail'

'i fail too'

and our tutor also stated that she loves us much

and really appreciate what we had done

she din think that it was that possible as well

but she is very proud of our committee

<3's

-here i wanna THANKYOU very very much dear tutor-

for giving me ah gong and i such great opportunity

to be able to hold this great event

it was also a test for both me ah gong and i

i feel that it made us stronger as individuals as well as a couple

-a thousand thank you's'-

well enough of all the bla bla bla's

without picture post...

i shall stop here and start with another post filled with our nite's preety pics

therefore

i, hereby announce that

this will be the end of this post

love love love you me ah gong

lots of hugs and kisses form me

-xoxoxo-

sweet dreams and sleep tight

looking forward to tomoro's outing with you darling

*muakz