~if you could just understand~

yesterday wasn't a very good mood day~

after work i got into the car and then i started complaining about hoe rude how disrespectful and how inconsiderate the customers and also the company can be~

i was complaining and complaining and when we were about to reach home she said to me something that hurts me until this very second and i really have no idea how to forget the exact sentence as it repeats itself over and over again in my brains...

*sigh*

i just wished that you did not mean it

i just wishes that you will support me in whatever

i just wished that you listen more ask more

i just wish that your words wont seem as harsh anymore

i just wished that we did not have that conversation

i just wish that you are able to feel how i feel

i just wished that i can talk to you about anything

i just wished you could understand more and trust me

all these thoughts in my mind...i cannot write it down because words simply cant do justice to how i am feeling inside...i sacrifice lots as well

i do my best as well to keep you happy

i try very hard not to compare with others my age or my friends

i do whatever that pleases you the most

it really hurt when those words came out and i do not know how to express myself anymore~

i'd really wished that didn;t happen and you do not think that way~

i only wanted you to give me a little support from all the work, all the standing for hours...

lastly ----- is the main purpose for me to work...

and i need them

you say that i do not do my part and think on your side how tough life is

TRUST me...i know and i kinda very much get it already

2500 for half a year???who will survive???

~I'D JUST WISHED YOU UNDERSTAND~

to my baby ah gong,

thank you for making me laugh again

thank you for making me not think too much

my attitude towards stuff has really changed and i really appreciate every single thing

-ILY-

as always...lot of love from me to you~

-x0x0-