DIVA or DONT

been back home for quite some time now...get the chance to go see see other ppl's blogs,profiles and sort and i start to think...and wat i thought of is precisely kinda sounds like this...ever wondered why the other person is so lucky, why the other person gets to hav like everything u hav ever wanted, why the other person is jus more than you by one step and u feel like u are way behind and getting no where near to that particular stage..u will tend to think to yrself that see in order to do this i will hav to buck up buck up and buck up and till the end of the day nothing much changes...you are sttil you and everything is still the way it is...at that point of time you will feel like im definately out of the picture or i just dont hav a life that is much interesting than the others...
parents do tell you that it is yr life and for different ppl defferent interesting things happen in their lives..mummy told me see u get to spend yr uni life in somewhere in the middle of no where and where really not many city ppl get to experience and spend their time living there...and by this experience u are different from other ppl already...mummy says that to me..and other than that..
i talk to me ah gong bout everything..too obviously..and kno waht he always tells me??i normally ask him random questions like why am i stuck here in the first place and why cant i go overseas and live the life i want or i wish to live??and he in his most charming yet caring voice tells me kno what if u were somewhere else and i was also stuck ere u wont have anyone to complain to and we wouldn't hav met..that is how he starts off and then i will still be emo-ing and still thinking and he carry's on...isnt yr life full will interesting stuff..its jus another 3 yrs and we are out of ere..its very fast so dont sorry and dont think too much of it kays...no matter what i'll always be ther with you through everything...and he'll change the topic that we are on...and oh..i have something to say to me ah gong...additional of post
to me ah gong(i know that you will be reading this sooner or later so here it goes) : thank you for all the things you have done and endured my awful "pi qi" for the past few days and on the 9th anniversary itself i too din wish that we had quarreled..sowee dear darling...i love you owes and owes...xoxoxo
really despite all the downs me ah gong is my love..he listens, he advices, he warns, he scolds(in a not angry tone,hehe), and most importantly he understands me and loves me...i am grateful...thkq ah gong...hmm hmmm bac to the topic that i was on...so.....
after mummy talk and ah gong talk....i thought to myself...dang it i do have a interesting life...interesting doesn't mean getting to go out and meet with famous people and partying...interesting dont have to be getting to spend all the money in the world to buy new stuff and having the privilage to get anything we want...interesting dont have to be being cool and cooler...interesting doesnt mean knowing each and evry human beings in the entire world..
my defination....i have a family that loves me thers id mummy dad kache and now che fu in my life and they all care and love me very much...i have my dearest *me ah gong* to go through every single detail in my life since my uni life started...i have a bunch of friends close frens and not so close frens and my best friend fei chu-a fren that we both dont communicate with each other much but wen we do we talk a whole lot we siao siao a whole lot and transform to our gila side and share all the laughters together (just adores her)...
well no doubts i feel jeolous of other other ppl but wth i me and i believe everyone is enjoying being who they are...so bac to living life...hehehe
thats about all for tday...ooooo ya...loves my new *click*click...pictures posted below are the pic i took from my new bb...heheh..till den...
love you lot ah gong
-xoxo-hugs and kisses from yr ah po
take care kays

pictuur time....!!!!

our cousins and cousins meeting

*noraa*

yummmy yummy fattening dou-nuuts

edwin kor and i

ceng ceng ceng.....a brooch from me to mummy chosen by ah gong and i

for mummy's day present

why izzit so

i've been backk home for the past few days already..and these few nite ah gong and i we kinda disagress with eah other a little..its gonna be already 9 months coming our relationship..sometimes when i talk to him and he did something wrong he just doesn't kno how to apologize..in a way he is not that good in comforting ppl...the past few times the problem is him going out and out and out...wen he is suppose to start taking his course in uni now..today is his first day but yesterday he slept after 1 oclock..tat is bcause his clothes arent washed...i nagged at him and he didn't say anything bad but he didnt say anything to make it better either...and today as predicted he felt sleepy in class a few times and wen he told me i thought to myself see..tats wat i meant..it has already been 9 month no way i wouldn't kno these things will happen...and to plus plus...the course/class that he is suppose to do is english for comm 2...tat explains a lot...language class isnt all that interesting and for additional it is from 830 until 5pm...
wat am i suppose to do..i kno i cant just sit there and not nag him and let him do watever he likes..for me i cant...if i really dont nag him it just seems like i just dont care...jus hung up the phone with him..he told me he just finshed his homework..he finished class and went to archery and dinner and after tat afte washing up oni finish doing his homework...keep telling not to do last minute job but well.........
if i say it too often it wil seem that he isnt doing rite..but.....hiahs........
wat am i suppose to do...i totally hav no mood watsoever to do anything now...had little sleep thinking bout whether i did anything or not all the way but atill din think of an answer..y izzit tat always i really do miss him and think of himm all the time but once i feel tat he isnt doing sumthin right i wont feel comfortable...sounds confusing but its the way....

happy mother's day!!!!!!

today is mummy's day...woke up this morning to surprise mummy with the 'brooch' i bought her from changlun..hehe the small town with nothing...but well me and me ah gong 's choice was right..mummy likes it...so happy to know that i got her sumthing that she needs..the colors of the pin is in this color..and i have picture of it
im gonna frorgo writting this blog cause i dont feel like it basically i wrote this blog for 3 times already but the damn line just keeps getting cut off so will carry on soon i guess....

having oats with milo,watching show,missing me ah gong

bac at home again finally...exam exam exam until wanna siao dy....today is a day to remember..kno y....i got my new and precious baby....hehehe....me own *click*click...its light peachy in colour and it is just lovely...finally i will get to bring my precious around and take down all the nice nice memories...especially durin august...hong kong hong kong!!!!!!!!!!yay!!!!!!!!!!
darling ar...at this minute u shud be shifting stuff from yr room to dpp YAB be careful kno and during comm 2 jia you jia you orr..always kno tat im here orr if there is anything remeber to share with me kno....i'll owes be there...hehehe...i miss you very much darling
got to carry on watching the movie dy getting interesting...hehe...will update and carryy on with the other juicy juicy stories..heheh...
love you lo0ts and lots dear me ah gong
-xoxo- miss you
take care darling

in the library...again.....

my fingers are numb now from the coldness...will post l8r....brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....colddddddddddddddddd......

31st of april........

try living with someone who succeds in annoying everyone with thier own action but not realizing that they are doing so....that someone should really wake up and be more :ownself: have your own personality and make up yr mind...think of others and dont ruin everything...friendships, closes friends, own studies, other ppl's study, and thier lives...because of this particular persons actions everyone is slowly drifting apart...they are drifting apart y??do you think???thay arent interested in wat u are saying why???do you think??? if you do think and you do realize why wouldn't you just stop not being you talk to others and stop doing things that offends other ppl....we are stiilllll around you aren't we...we are stil here....
being together with someone that you are really not suppose to be with all the time isn't cool....being together with that one person that can change you to become better is fine but dont go other wise...they ruin you and guiide you the wrong way....it isnt that jus because someone is doing so the other human beings on earth has to do so....be yrself...learn to be yrself no matter how u are like...dont be someone else and end up with no :yrself:......
exams are stil on...am stil routinely coming to the library everyday day and night looking at the way that the situation in the room is so 'tensed' i cant take it for any longer have to transport ourselfs out to the fridge to study...yesterday nite wat i felt when i was talking to me ah gong felt really terrible....talking about y ppl do stuff and wat ppl do.....really funny in a way but too much of it really pisses ppl off...badly...even if someone with loads of patients also will blow into pieces...hiahs....cant wait to get home and not being 'here'......
the next paper====food sanitation...studying bout food hygiene, bacteria, loads and loads of stuuf bout cleanliness..and the other thing is its a 2000 paper that simply means its a written without any multiple choices as in nothing to choose from as in write everything by youself as in OH MY GOOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dont kno wat to read wat to memorize that i dont really do often or even never...well we shall really see by then....
am stil upset with ah gong.....he did not manage to study the whole afternoon he went out to meet with friends go eat go fix stuff and go chat instead...jus hope that he when it s time to study everything goes in...not long to the next papper..really wished that he knows that its the crucial time of the semester...but no doubts he also feels the pressure and need to relax from time to time...relax not only from all the reading and stuff..well partly me too i guess....(but i definately hope not)........hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmsssssssssssssssss.....
welll enough of wonderings and pouring out my thoughts...here wishing che fu tan happy birthday and may everything run as smooth as melted butter....
*blekws*
i love you very very much me ah gong....may you do well in all subjects...
we will jia you jia you together k...
wiillll always be by each others side for always......
有我就暖,一世照着你.
always remeber darling...forever........
xoxo love always yr ah po.......