Let The Rain Wash Away The Pain Of Yesterday ='(

i feel like running away,i feel like singing out loud,i feel like spinning myself round round until i go dizzy,i feel like walking to a far far away land where there is only the feeling of freedom
i wanna be in a band and sing everyday till the sun sets, i wanna be the girl that has the opportunity to perform for others,i like happening events;concerts and all,i wish to be at my favorite singer's concert one day screaming my lungs out!!!
i wish to wear clothes that makes me pretty,i wish to wear clothes that shows me off,i wish to have a make up collection,i wish to own shoes that has rainbow colors
i wish to be smarter,i wish to be more active,i wish to be more out going,i wish to be more up-to-date,i wish to be more talented
i wish to be more perfect for you
i wish to be more of who i want myself to be


BUT
 wishes remains wishes 
no one can ever be perfect nor get the things that they want
no one wants to get in trouble with people they love most
no one wants to live their life under a rock
no one wants to be the one that is empty inside
no one wants anyone else to laugh at them just because they aren't skinny or pretty
no one wants to cry alone
no one wants to share their happiness with only themselves
no one wants to live with complicated daily routines
no one wants to feel invisible


*live happy*
signing off
luv,
apr

out of BOREDOM

so here i am in my uni sitting in my room now currently it is raining outside so what do i do??
no i do not take my books out to study nor complete my homework,not tat i have any.
I,me,i choose to go online and look at anyything that catches my eyes and then i stump upon a blog that belongs to a secondary skol dang it i still spell school as skol...friend's friend and so i read read read and i clicked into this website http://lookbook.nu/ and whoa~ the pictures inside they are so stylish and pretty but all taken by people or modeled by people that are mostly young people but fashion is so great 'wear it and make a garment look its best possible' and with the internet line i have in uni here it is hopeless for me to scroll down as fast as i like.but still I AM GRATEFUL for having internet connection in my room even though it is hopeless sometimes it is good enough so THANKYOU for providing us WI-FI.
just two days ago,25 of us hospitality ppl crossed the border and entered Thailand to have dinner at a place called WaterView.it is a really nice place,loved the ambiance,loved the seats,and even their toilets were COOL-er than normal toilets >< we each had to pay 213 Thai bahts for dinner.the menu that night was black pepper pork,steamed fish in some sauce,sweet and sour chicken,mixed vegetable,and the dish of the night of course-Tom Yam Goong that was yummsss.ah gong enjoyed it too eve though it was really spicy but he managed well.=) in Thailand, we managed to grab all the stuff that we wanted over the holidays being back at home.like what you ask?1.the oh-so-yummy soya milk that not costly at all yet super delicious 2.spicy pork flavored instant noodles that most probably will be my dinner tonight 3.and and the one thing that was on everyone's to-buy-list POCKY stick...the selection they have there are crazy i tell you and oh~all these things you can get em in their 7-Elevens that is located every single corner you go,super convenient.
in uni,it is convocation season and so little booths will be set up at Padang Palapes and basically the Uni will be lively for 4-5 days.Yesterday was one of our friend's graduation day and so we went over to Dewan MAS to shake hands,give presents and take pictures aiyahh the normal stuff people do during graduations lahhh and the fun part was,i got to help them take pictures using one of our friend's DSLR,whoa the feeling of owning a DSLR sure makes you *takes deep breaths* one happy person.The picture that i helped them take *i because i did not want to be in pictures yesterday just because *dot dot dot* right~the pictures was lovely,i love the colors all around especially with the help of Mr. Sunshine,just by looking at the small little photos displayed on the camera's small screen took my breath away~and im sure me, turning one tone darker being under the sun taking pictures for them for almost an hour is worth all the pretty pictures.
well just another post updating all the what-have-beens' and what is about to come this weekend sure is going to be exiting!!!
WE ARE GOING TO KRABI,THAILAND!!!
i am really exited
no,really i am jumping from the inside out!!!
i can't wait to be near the sand and the seas again!!!
^^
i shall end my post here then
love you lots me ah gong
-xoxoxo-

'Ran' Away

i feel like running away to the far away land where normally stories and fairytales take place. The far away land where only happy endings happen. I want to be Cinderella that finally gets to be with her prince that adores her and provides for her willingly and lovingly. I would like to dance and sing with all the pets, furniture, and every other little mice that runs in the house. I would like to be more 'me'...

I really would want to follow my heart but my brains are telling me other wise. The angel and the devil both has came out together. One encouraging me while the other, doing other wise. Reasons for me to smile is getting less i feel, but whatever we had been through i still believe is there for us to hold on to.

I want to know but i just cannot figure out, was it me or was it you? Or is it 'a bad time' for us?

My brains are in knots when it happens, did i not do enough?

*allimthinkingisnowistopackmybagstakeacabandheadouttoaroomwherethereisnoonebutonlyme*

I'm in no mood now to carry on...Hoping for a 'U' turn to appear on the way...

-PFM-

S.T.O.L.E

fell in love with this and as the title said~stole~from couzzie's blog

Thanku fOR LettiNG mE Steal

<3

It's too bad

Picture #1 =) me ah gong and i at the Alor Mall's cinema with NASI LEMAK2.0's poster...we came out from the cinema still bursting out with laughters...

i must say its too bad that this movie, that went through so many stages of difficulties to actually get the approval from the govn. to broadcast this movie in the cinema's of the whole Malaysia and NOW~after one week the movie came out,they are giving so many excuses and reasons that this movie is a bad influence to the nation.

it's like @@ kind of scenario

really too bad

well~take care ya'll

will post another post soon i hope

To me ah gong

-xoxo-

Nasi Lemak 2.0 ^^

Today 'Sai' family went out to grab groceries and also to catch Nasi Lemak 2.0, a film made by a local Namewee that has gone through very very tough times just to get this movie aired in Malaysia officially...

Congrats to him and the movie was contagiously hilarious...We laughed so much all throughout the movie and time just flew by just like that.

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Well wanted to upload a few pics from today but too bad...itu line tidak mengizinkan i to do so...@@

I shall end this post for now^^

Good Night and Sweet Dreams

Love you always,gong

-xoxo-

New Second Half of The Year

So the 3 months holiday has officially ended and now im back in UUM. This semester involves a whole lot of changes, my closest family members in uni is now scattered everywhere,each and every corner of UUM. The furthest, sai theng has shifted to MAS from Muamalat, sai zhen has shifted to MISC,where me ah gong stays, and sai huey and i remains in Muamalat. At first the thought of them shifting scares me cause all three of my roomates has already finished all their subjects and had already left the uni~But fortunately for the few of us we have ourselves a roomate that is friendly but for the other some.........=(

Today is the day that us chinese people celebrate Mid Autumn Festival, the day where little children play with lanterns and candles while the adults sits under the sky brightly lit by the bright fullmoon enjoying mooncakes while drinking chinese tea and talking about the past...*owh how i miss celebrating this day at home with my parents,sister,popo,and all my cousins*...It is tough for me to come back to Kedah to study seeing that i have been back at home being pampered by family for the whole 3 months. I have to say coming back here after 3 months NOTHING HAS CHANGED *sighs* 1. the stupid system is still as stupid 2. the management is still as crappy 3. the rules are still as silly 4. the food here is still as spicy 5. the number of cats here are still as many 6. the students here still walk as slow *>< as if they have the whole day to spend just to walk down the stairs* 7.the residential hall is still desperate for $$$ and so many more i cannot even write down everything in detail...All im telling myself and also my other coursemates, "THIS WILL BE OUR FINAL SEMESTER" anything comes just do it and get over it and time will pass fast...*fingers crossed* so for now we are living with this motto and countdown starts from now...@@

Owh.....let me talk about something exiting rather than blabbing about these ol complaints.

My uni family 'The Sai Family' we went for a little trip to Genting Highlands before we came back to the 'jungle'. It was fun i tell you^^ Tiring but Fun.

.. let me show you a few pictures we took。。。。。。。。》》》》》

This first pic was taken in the cable car on our way up.

On our way up it was clear and werent misty at all but almost half way up we weren't able to see anything including all the trees and all as all we could see was layers and layers of very thick mist.

My first time checking into a room using a machine. And we had this privilege all thanks to ah gong's ah 'tao'.All in all the room only cost RM17 per night *inside joke* and eventhough it was small as usual, we still had a place to sleep and have fun and chit chat and 'play cards'. Well who doesn't so all those stuff.=)

Our family pic before the room room gets messed up.Right after checking in.<3 ya'll much...

My love, me ah gong...*shy* XD

After a uber yummy dinner at this restaurant that never in a million years i taught that i will be able to eat such yummy and pricy food up in the hills.

From the left: Sai Huey,Sai Zhen, Sai Theng, Sai Yen (me!!!)XD

At about 2 mid-night we were hungry and so we decided to change and head out to find cup noodles but we ended up in Hainan Kitchen. Their toast was good but their congee was erkkk tasteless ><

Our entrance wristbands -----> form here our fun afternoon officially had begun!!!

I loved the colours in the chocolate shop near the entrance and we spent so much time in there taking photos only.This picture was mainly taken because of the colors of the tiles on the floor and turns out we all like this picture very much.Thank you camera man!!!

Another family photo...with a couple behind...and i must way that no matter how cold the weather is up in Gentings many of them can dress up in short and heels in the theme park...?!?!?!?*don't mind me*

This place is a place that i love the pictures came out naise...teehee...the green green grass and the soft breezy wind *floats away and dreamsssss~*

A picture of ah gong and i @Genting theme park will end this blog post.

All in all this trip was something that we need before we start our final semester in uni~Thanks for everything ah gong. I hope that more Sai family outings come......

take care and love always

-xoxo-