Too Harsh... Bitch

I cannot for a minute expect that you can actually be who you are these few days. You have changed. 
I have no idea what struck you to be so irrational, so selfish, so hard to read. Seriously what is friendship to you?Do you consider us closer friend or do you take advantage of us just because we understand you better and take us for granted. throwing your silly tantrums at us~That is definitely not fair for not only me but all four of us too. Let me tell you how i see this~you started throwing your prissy huge tantrums at us FOR NO FREAKING REASON, blame every else for everything that you are not satisfied with but i must say you had control to what you could have done for yourself, then after coming back i thought everything was over but NOPE!!! surprise!!!you were still the same.....Seriously what the F is wrong with you?
We take our turns to try to talk to you.....YOU DON'T CARE
We change topics to communicate with you.....still YOU DON'T FREAKING CARE
Your facial expressions kills us from within, and really you take the mood out of all of us. But in front of other people you are indescribably happy. I make my move but NO YOU DO NOT EFFFFIIIINNNGGG GIVE A DAMN!!!
I mean hey if you really don't want to see us by all means tell us to move or sit the next table or you can even get us out of your sight by simply not being together with any of us.Simply as that!!!*sigh*
Please know, IT HURTS~Friends definitely do not treat one another how you treat us. We seriously did nothing wrong and if by blaming us makes you feel better by all means go ahead, scold us, blame us, we are already going numb from all your bad-mouthing and way of treating us like dirt. We accept you as you are because you are our friend. Friends are easy to find but not easy to keep. Please, i ask of you, CHANGE~
You FB post is the one that pissed me off BIG TIME~Do know that the whole world does not only revolve around you, there are others too. With feelings~ Do care for us, remember that we exist, think of how we would feel by all your actions...


CONGRATULATIONS FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE SHIT...UNTIL NOW~
GLAD THAT SOME OUTSIDER THAT WON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU MADE YOU HAPPY AGAIN~


till then,
xoxo
love you always me ah gong~

依然爱你-王力宏

一閃一閃亮晶晶　留下歲月的痕跡
我的世界的重心　依然還是你
一年一年又一年　飛逝僅在一轉眼
唯一永遠不改變　是不停的改變
我不像從前的自己　你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑　依然的美麗
日子只能往前走　一個方向順時鐘
不知道愛有多久　所以要讓你懂
我依然愛你　將是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜　時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸　每個動作　每個表情
到最後　一定會　依然愛你
(依然愛你　依然愛你…)

我不像從前的自己　你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑　依然的美麗
日子只能往前走　一個方向順時鐘
不知道愛有多久　所以要讓你懂
我依然愛你　就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜　時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸　每個動作　每個表情
到最後　一定會　依然愛你
(依然愛你　依然愛你…)

我依然愛你　或許是命中注定
多年之後　任何人都無法代替
那些時光　是我這一輩子最美好的
那些回憶　依然無法忘記
我依然愛你　這是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜　時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸　每個動作　每個表情
到永遠　一定會　依然愛你

November the Eighteenth 2011

Today is the 19th but i decided to do this post cause of what happened yesterday on the 18th of November.Yesterday was a day of relief,relaxation,exiting turned worrisome,slow paced,unexpectedly surprised (in.not.so.good.a.way). In the morning we had our final paper for me and me ah gong's mid semester exams along with our sai family members-sai theng,sai zhen,and sai huey too. So,when the clock striked 10:30 the burden in our hearts were finally released and we were able to eat,rest and sleep as much as we can.Wait...That is because we had our first paper on the 15th at 8.30pm then a quiz the next day at 2.00pm then another paper that night itself at 8.30pm and the day after the next was our final paper.That is why this week to me has passed by in a super slow pace.
Now, at this moment i'm in a relaxed kinda mode~listening to the songs that Alie transferred to me,it makes me think of home very much.I often relate situations that i am in to the songs that i listen to.Call me over-sensitive but i can tear listening to the lyrics of a sad song just like the one that i am stuck to currently-Adele's Someone Like You.*sobs* -End of the me being Emo-
Anywho~this post suppose to be about yesterday's adventure.Our poor sai zhen had to make her way back home because since before she came back to the uni she was already feeling unwell,coughing and feverish too. A few days later the medication that she was on didn't seem to be doing her any good therefore PKU check-up was done and after the second visit to the doctors she found out that she is down with Pheumonia. Well so she decided to go back and get better. We left the uni at about 5.25 then we headed out straight to Alor Setar Sultan Abdul Halim Airport, well on the way the sky was clear for about 10 minutes drive but suddenly right in front of us we could see the rain pouring so heavily,we couldn't even see the car in front of us clearly,to be honest i was terrified at that time. Our trusty little rented Perodua Kancil was a little unstable with all the puddle at the road sides it kind of died on us at one point of time but ah gong managed to get it going again. We were going at about less than 20km/h at that time,it was really that bad!!!We had to turn on the hazard lights all the way.The heavy rain didn't stop until we finally reached at the airport,and when we got down the car the wind was going crazy.We had the feeling of safety-ness when we stepped foot in the airport. *phew* ---in addition the little car had water seeping in from everywhere.@@
So after we had settled down at the airport,sai zhen checked-in and we waited for her to make her way to the waiting hall.Brief goodbye session then wished her well and to be back here in tip top condition and also in a fatter state.-and we are serious about it- 
Today through Facebook,got to know that she is feeling better,getting medication and care from her family.It is good news that she is healing from the evil evil germs,am truly happy for you,dear~


Best wishes to you dear sai zhen.
I shall end this post here...
Till the next post take care all.
Love Always,
-xoxo-

Let The Rain Wash Away The Pain Of Yesterday ='(

i feel like running away,i feel like singing out loud,i feel like spinning myself round round until i go dizzy,i feel like walking to a far far away land where there is only the feeling of freedom
i wanna be in a band and sing everyday till the sun sets, i wanna be the girl that has the opportunity to perform for others,i like happening events;concerts and all,i wish to be at my favorite singer's concert one day screaming my lungs out!!!
i wish to wear clothes that makes me pretty,i wish to wear clothes that shows me off,i wish to have a make up collection,i wish to own shoes that has rainbow colors
i wish to be smarter,i wish to be more active,i wish to be more out going,i wish to be more up-to-date,i wish to be more talented
i wish to be more perfect for you
i wish to be more of who i want myself to be


BUT
 wishes remains wishes 
no one can ever be perfect nor get the things that they want
no one wants to get in trouble with people they love most
no one wants to live their life under a rock
no one wants to be the one that is empty inside
no one wants anyone else to laugh at them just because they aren't skinny or pretty
no one wants to cry alone
no one wants to share their happiness with only themselves
no one wants to live with complicated daily routines
no one wants to feel invisible


*live happy*
signing off
luv,
apr

out of BOREDOM

so here i am in my uni sitting in my room now currently it is raining outside so what do i do??
no i do not take my books out to study nor complete my homework,not tat i have any.
I,me,i choose to go online and look at anyything that catches my eyes and then i stump upon a blog that belongs to a secondary skol dang it i still spell school as skol...friend's friend and so i read read read and i clicked into this website http://lookbook.nu/ and whoa~ the pictures inside they are so stylish and pretty but all taken by people or modeled by people that are mostly young people but fashion is so great 'wear it and make a garment look its best possible' and with the internet line i have in uni here it is hopeless for me to scroll down as fast as i like.but still I AM GRATEFUL for having internet connection in my room even though it is hopeless sometimes it is good enough so THANKYOU for providing us WI-FI.
just two days ago,25 of us hospitality ppl crossed the border and entered Thailand to have dinner at a place called WaterView.it is a really nice place,loved the ambiance,loved the seats,and even their toilets were COOL-er than normal toilets >< we each had to pay 213 Thai bahts for dinner.the menu that night was black pepper pork,steamed fish in some sauce,sweet and sour chicken,mixed vegetable,and the dish of the night of course-Tom Yam Goong that was yummsss.ah gong enjoyed it too eve though it was really spicy but he managed well.=) in Thailand, we managed to grab all the stuff that we wanted over the holidays being back at home.like what you ask?1.the oh-so-yummy soya milk that not costly at all yet super delicious 2.spicy pork flavored instant noodles that most probably will be my dinner tonight 3.and and the one thing that was on everyone's to-buy-list POCKY stick...the selection they have there are crazy i tell you and oh~all these things you can get em in their 7-Elevens that is located every single corner you go,super convenient.
in uni,it is convocation season and so little booths will be set up at Padang Palapes and basically the Uni will be lively for 4-5 days.Yesterday was one of our friend's graduation day and so we went over to Dewan MAS to shake hands,give presents and take pictures aiyahh the normal stuff people do during graduations lahhh and the fun part was,i got to help them take pictures using one of our friend's DSLR,whoa the feeling of owning a DSLR sure makes you *takes deep breaths* one happy person.The picture that i helped them take *i because i did not want to be in pictures yesterday just because *dot dot dot* right~the pictures was lovely,i love the colors all around especially with the help of Mr. Sunshine,just by looking at the small little photos displayed on the camera's small screen took my breath away~and im sure me, turning one tone darker being under the sun taking pictures for them for almost an hour is worth all the pretty pictures.
well just another post updating all the what-have-beens' and what is about to come this weekend sure is going to be exiting!!!
WE ARE GOING TO KRABI,THAILAND!!!
i am really exited
no,really i am jumping from the inside out!!!
i can't wait to be near the sand and the seas again!!!
^^
i shall end my post here then
love you lots me ah gong
-xoxoxo-

'Ran' Away

i feel like running away to the far away land where normally stories and fairytales take place. The far away land where only happy endings happen. I want to be Cinderella that finally gets to be with her prince that adores her and provides for her willingly and lovingly. I would like to dance and sing with all the pets, furniture, and every other little mice that runs in the house. I would like to be more 'me'...

I really would want to follow my heart but my brains are telling me other wise. The angel and the devil both has came out together. One encouraging me while the other, doing other wise. Reasons for me to smile is getting less i feel, but whatever we had been through i still believe is there for us to hold on to.

I want to know but i just cannot figure out, was it me or was it you? Or is it 'a bad time' for us?

My brains are in knots when it happens, did i not do enough?

*allimthinkingisnowistopackmybagstakeacabandheadouttoaroomwherethereisnoonebutonlyme*

I'm in no mood now to carry on...Hoping for a 'U' turn to appear on the way...

-PFM-

S.T.O.L.E

fell in love with this and as the title said~stole~from couzzie's blog

Thanku fOR LettiNG mE Steal

<3