Hey 08 '11!!!

okay it has been super duper long since i've updated my blog,eventhough im now currently bumming at home im still too lazy to update me bloggie *truth is i have no where to go and my life iznt that happening rite now**sighs*

since the first day of august i have been looking forward to the 13th cause it is a special day to us ,both me and me ah gong~^^ it marks the 3 years that we have been together and let me say that we have gone through many up and a fair amount of downs too definitely~this year there wasn't any celebration or even a simple meal compared to the past two years we would go out to Changlun foor dinner or Jitra for a movie, this year...we couldn't celebrate as ah gong is still working in gentings as a commis with 8 other coursemates of ours...

no he did not forget or did not apply for leave to come to kl but apparently form august onwards they pay 3ple the salary if they work on their off days...and since we are now at the stage of saving money for future use we both agreed that we will shift this years' celebration for later..=)

i really am thankful for all the sacrifices that you have and still making ah gong~*hugs

you miss your home, your family, and your friends back at home and you would wanna see them,take some time off to rest before out last semester starts but you are and have already been working for 3 months already in gentings...thank you for everything,love

=) this photo was taken sometime ago and im currently in love with it much!!!now that i have already kinda know how the photo editor works it is super fun to make pictures look even prettier..

owhhhhh~two days ago i had the chance to meet up with one of my friend from my secondary skol-simone..we were good friends back then, did all the gurly stuff like going over to her house and talk about everything and anything that definatly includes boys and our future duture*thats not even a word may i say*...ngek ngek but after they left skol..i carried on to do my STPM and they were well off to colleges then soon we kinda lost touch until good ol Facebook came into our lives...*woots to the founder!!!* then we kept in touch and then we lost touch and then got in touch and it went on and on~until two days ago we finally met up and talked and grabbed lunch together...i must say i miss the ol time when we had time to walk over to our friends house talk and go crazy all day~*wonders off and dreams ahhhhhhhhh~*

lols...well i think my main purpose of this blog post has been achieved and so i shall sign off and say goodbai^^

and as always

love you always ah gong

-xoxo-

Chris Brown Feat. Justin Bieber - Next To You

音乐填满了我的心

这几天我的心情特别特别得差，我脑海里塞满了许多许多的问号。。。

天天都在想为什么别人的生活那么的精彩有趣而我的是一堆一堆的问号和艰难

我知道也很多人都和我讲过很多次不可以和别人比因为我根本不知道别人的事，别人的life...我的烦恼然而是我的发脑而跟伤感的是钱的问题。。。家人的支持。。。这两点都够烦了。。。

这几天都会无时无刻崩溃特别是在晚上头脑空空的时候，胡思乱想的时间也特别的多。。。

明天本来好期待好期待可以见到我的宝贝啊公但是今天被我的胡思乱想给搞砸了。。。

本来现在这个时候可以见到他的，但是也出不成。我今天友好搞好高的期望你会出现在我的面前但是到最后也没有结果。。。所以吵架了。。。伤心过了就算了

23岁的我，好像开始做我心里想做的东西，那些东西包括了好多好多的梦醒

也有好多好多的东西想要和我最亲爱的一起做。。。

现在的面子书里，可以见到朋友生活里的点点滴滴，可以说是80%有男或女朋友的朋友家人都知道，都很支持。可以一起吃饭，走街，谈天，在一起一天开开心心的

为什么我的这一段好好的感情要偷偷摸摸的呢。。。

我感觉好厌倦了就只是为了‘你’一个而天天都不舒服，有种不氛气的感觉。。。

好伤心，心好疼。那中种感觉只好用微笑来遮掩

RES-PECT

this blog post was a inspiration from a bus ride back home in a mini bus

there are many different job post as we all know. there are those that require skills and there are those that requires the littlest or least effort. being a cleaner is having a job, being a mini bus driving is having a job, being a rubbish collector is having a job, all these are same as having jobs like being a nanny, a retail assistant, an executive chef, a manager in a big company. nevertheless being a boss or the CEO of the company also falls under the category of W-O-R-K-I-N-G. without a job that is proper of course means no income and no income means no food no cloths no place to stay no nothing and as for those wealthier/ rich people no money means no luxury, 'no life', no popularity, no fame,no nothing basically.

right, with that all said the point that i wanna state is that no matter the job level, or post one person holds, their main purpose is to find money to support themselves, their family members, to make life easier to pass day by day. and so each and every one of us should respect, care,be courteous, be sincere to anyone in this matter. example???easiest example is in retails line~

situation:in a shoe shop~lady wants to ask for size~

okay~fine~BUT she has to ask for her shoe size to try on while the sales girls is busy attending to other customers.it is like WHAT!!!CAN'T YOU NOT WAIT JUST FOR ONE MOMENT...I SAW YOU WAVE YOUR HANDS SO HIGH WHILE SITTING YOUR BUTT DOWN ON THE CHAIR WHILE SCREAMING 'HALOOOOO,I WANT SIZE PLEASE!!!"

it is like please please please, service people aren't your servants, they are there to help and assist you.people. and how do customers that do not think treat the sales assistant???

RUDELY~especially those younger ones, they tend to ignore your presence as a human being with feelings and that also can fell fatigue, tiredness, fed up but can't quit what they are doing, unhappy at times, hate being pushed too hard, being 'used'...

today in the bus it was really hot and especially in a mini bus, the sun was blazing hot shinning right into the bus while the hot heat stays in the bus as it did not have proper ventilation. as i sat across the bus driver i could feel how tired,thirsty, burning everything is~

the ;driver; finished his coke in less than 5 minutes, had to wear a cap while driving, had long sleeve shirts on that weren''t all that clean, and still had to fight through the horrible terrible traffic to send people and get them to where they want to go~

ever thought of 'where would THEY wanna go at this time???

all jobs are different in terms of skills, workload, position,fame but all employees should ceserve respect from one another as well as people outside...

A SMILE FROM THE HEART WILL HOPEFULLY CHEER PEOPLE UP

dont forget to say your thank you's

be sincere and polite no matter who you are talking to

~RESPECT~

to me ah gong

thank you for the few hours spent together

thank you for having me in your plan today

ILYand IMY

XOXO

all the best in your job

<3

me

~if you could just understand~

yesterday wasn't a very good mood day~

after work i got into the car and then i started complaining about hoe rude how disrespectful and how inconsiderate the customers and also the company can be~

i was complaining and complaining and when we were about to reach home she said to me something that hurts me until this very second and i really have no idea how to forget the exact sentence as it repeats itself over and over again in my brains...

*sigh*

i just wished that you did not mean it

i just wishes that you will support me in whatever

i just wished that you listen more ask more

i just wish that your words wont seem as harsh anymore

i just wished that we did not have that conversation

i just wish that you are able to feel how i feel

i just wished that i can talk to you about anything

i just wished you could understand more and trust me

all these thoughts in my mind...i cannot write it down because words simply cant do justice to how i am feeling inside...i sacrifice lots as well

i do my best as well to keep you happy

i try very hard not to compare with others my age or my friends

i do whatever that pleases you the most

it really hurt when those words came out and i do not know how to express myself anymore~

i'd really wished that didn;t happen and you do not think that way~

i only wanted you to give me a little support from all the work, all the standing for hours...

lastly ----- is the main purpose for me to work...

and i need them

you say that i do not do my part and think on your side how tough life is

TRUST me...i know and i kinda very much get it already

2500 for half a year???who will survive???

~I'D JUST WISHED YOU UNDERSTAND~

to my baby ah gong,

thank you for making me laugh again

thank you for making me not think too much

my attitude towards stuff has really changed and i really appreciate every single thing

-ILY-

as always...lot of love from me to you~

-x0x0-

quick update~^^

1. its that time of the SEMESTER again, its add drop week for us sem 6 going sem 7 students.>< by looking at it, we will be by far the oldest bunch to be in this uni~eacluding the master students, the PHD students and also the lecturers lah of course.
2. many activities has passed, presentations, mid semester exams. that is why my blog felt kinda empty for the pass month`sorry bloggie^^
3. today after add/drop time.wishes that everything goes smoothly~.i will be well on my way home!!!weeeee!!!and i have never gone home middle of the semester without any Official holiday week...so still can consider good student eh???XD
4. ka che has shifted back in to our house~yay!!!no more staying in sg, but ever since my mum has been nagging me about how much stuff i have scattered everywhere and that she wont know how to pack it><
5. my eyes are like -.- now~really gonna fall asleep if i could~so i shall just stop here...btw...we:me ah gong, me myself, sai theng and sai zhen celebrated my birthday together..we went alor setar one day 'tour'@.@ but it was fun..had Kenny Rogers for lunch and also took the chance to go over to the水晶山 for the first time actually, bought dad, mum, and also ka che braclets^^
6. so, i shall really end this post now~save the line for later~please be 顺顺利利 later~and may i reach home safe~
7. ^^ <3

Tomorrow Never Comes

Life is something that you can never get a Second Chance with
when the time comes no matter what you have done-good or bad- when it is times up it is times up already
28th of febuary will be a day that will not be forgotten as two of our close friends and coursemates passed away in a tragic accident adn one is still in the hospital with injuries.
Our Prayers are with them
May our friends rest in peace and may Candy girl stay strong and get well asa soon as possible.

-Many say that live life while you can while others might choose to stay and live at a safe pace-
To some~living life is all about taking the most adventurest journey in thier lifes.
Going through all sorts of challenges and making the best out of every little thing possible.
After the tragic accident, i really feel that LIFE is a one thing that so precious that nothing else can beat it.
what about sickness and relationship failure~it doesn't matter
what about lost of money and also a little fever and flu~it is nothing
Compared to Death~
I myself have learnt that no matter what problems we face...There Will Be A Way Out
I might be the one that gets mad or frustrated when something doesn't go my way but after these few days i should be lucky enough to still be here to experience and go through all the ups and downs with my love ones and especially with my Family~

It is so hard for me whenever i think of dearest Ah Sien and Xiao Pei~
They were such happy individuals~carefree and happy-go-lucky where no worries are shown on their faces.
They brought laughter whenever i am around them.
And i Thank both of them for that~
For the past few days~a lot of thinking, opening up to friends was done and Both of You have made me realize and appreciate everything even more
Especially Friendship~
Thank You

Classes and SDG'S will be so different, but memories will never be erased.
May both of you Rest In Peace
We believe that both of you are in a better place with no worries.
Thank You for being our friend and we are really glad and proud to have had you as our friend.
WE WILL MISS YOU
R.I.P