didn't go so well today....THINK HARDER

i went all furious today...slamming down phone calls on him...dont feel like talking to him....wen for a walk round and round with no directions for an hour....*sigh*

according to a movie i watched just recently...it has a line that goes..." there are 10 rules of what boyfriends should practive and 9 of them has to do with not forgetting to do things"...

today what happened was he tottally forgot and i totaly went balistic....

'you want me to text i'l text...but i will expect a reply from you telling me tooo' you get me???

after that when we happen to quarrel all there is is 'we shall talk later...' or i'l call you later...'

i'd rather you be on the other side of the phone and talk to me....not just shut me off....

i am still trying very very hard to cope with all your activities...its not easy i can tell you....its not that easy fro me either....

baby: i am doing my part, i do support you, but i ask of you to not simply put me aside when your activity is in place...im human...i feel....and i expect.....

can't think of anything else...am too tired....

another tiring day tomoro....gonna do our project for ETR group...

despite all the quarrelling you are always number one in my heart....

i hope for you to pay a little bit more attention wen i need you...

i love you very much ah gong....

-xoxoxo-

waiting for me next class....french....and the time now is 12.10 pm

just a quick update...i still find it very troublesome to have to change into long pants to go down stairs just to go online...i wanna have a line in me roon tooo.....so inconvenient lar....
oh...yesterday for our entrepreneur group we did our very first day of business seling tong sui...go barli and luo hon gor....friggin tired i tell you....went all the way up 5 florrs stoping at every portion then sumore had to go AP3 and AP4 sumore....from noon itself started dy den wrk work work deliver deliver...come bac...phew...7.30 evening dy....
was friggin hungry too cuase wanted to have lunch while waiting...mana tau no time to wait or rest while the things is cooking...have to jaga the tong sui like small baby like tat...susah orr...keke...
well i shall stop here first...

love you me ah gong..love you love you love you......
-xoxoxo-

do keep in mind....

it only takes one person to spoil everything...in my case...people around...mostly they stink....they stink in a way that they dont have ffelings they are self centered and they are blimmingly selfish....how can someone be that way i cannot figure.....

i cannot think of why people can treat someone else that way.....see you,like you,talk to you;see you, hate you, ignore you.....

i have like tons and millions of knots in my tummy but nothing can help sure....the things and problems are like pilling up higher and higher and higher.....

what is in my surroundings i cannot stand...i cannot get use to...

i try very hard but still its the same....

i cannot complian as i cannot afford to....

where else can i go what else can i do....

i hate...i hate...i hate...

i have to tell myself to ignore....

al wyas have to...other ppl doesnt matter to you.....things they do wont affect you....they are who they are and how they behave are what they are....you cant change things...but only to accept.....

so be it...

stop being selfish and think of other ppl's sake.....

for you me ah gong....

i love you as much as always....please be ther for me....

-xoxoxo-

life away from home....

it is hard seriously....especially when u at land at a place without the food that you want to eat....get a hack load of work to do...do all the walking and the running around like you have never walked before.......

despite all the teeeny weeeny stuff i just dislike working with people that doesn't care...at all.....

haihz.....no matter who you are what you ar working together means working and blending in with other group members not helping them by giving them by creating more trouble thank you very much....

what to do what to do.....only get to wish that projects will be over really soon......

yesterday nite was by far a nite that i felt like collapsing on to the ground....both me ah gong and i had to rush our 8 in the morning due assignment.....it was horrible lar.....but luckily with me ah gong by myside we manage to scrape through and finally finished at 11++ nearing midnight-condition:unbathed.......

yesterday was really really really a rush....din even get to sleep enough....

1st individual assesment, then kitchen to experiment then back to the room then assignment time!!!!!just great eh.....

oh ya and we managed to sip through me ah gong's not quite a success kinda birthday celebration....bbut i guess he enjoyed it....^.^v

well well....latest update!!!!me ah gong and i will be going to Jitra tomoyow!!!yay hang kai kai time!!!!!keke.....after that will be mummum time luuuuu......so exited to go out with me ah gong....hehehe.....latest latest update....tomorow is declaired to be cinema day!!!!!WOOHOO!!!!!!

its time to stop now....get me beauty sleep and go out!!!!!TOMOROW!!!!!!

i love you me ah gong....<3<3<3

-xoxoxo-

03032010

tomorow's a big day for me ah gong....^.^ may you live a healthy and prosperous life my darling...have nothing much for you orr...got you just a small prezzie....cant wait to give it to you tomoro dear....<3

wanna tell you that i love you my dear....

*muakz*muakz*muakz

thank you for all the memorable moments especially for my 21st darling....may all of your birthdays be as special as you are....

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.....

today's valentines day!!!yet again!!!yay!!!!

lurve~~~~amour~~~~
^.^ i forgot to update bout me valentines...this years valentines hmmm...by far the most romantic one...but it wasnt on the actual date though...it was on the 6th of febuary night when sparkles fill the skies and when it fill my eyes were filled woth tears too....
me ah gong made me cry...:(
but it was tears of hapiness....he was so sweet....
what i had???
very simple....a surprise from him coming over from his dorm late at nite bearing gifts.....valentines day gift....it was a real surprise....teehee.....
it was a dark blue color bag with pretty pretty shining stars printed all over it with glitters on top....
inside it was a dark blue color box with the same pretty start on it......
need not say more i was already swept off my feel looking at the box itself already.....
inside....guess......something soft, something fabric, something that i wanted for US to have for a really long time.....
OUR VERY OWN FIRST COUPLE'S TEE......
that itself made me cry as i really din expect.....hehe...*thaank you soooooo much me ah gong*
then while opening the baju something else was inside....
something paper, something hard, something so very special.......
ah gong made me a mini scrapbook filled with our pics and sweet sweet words from him.....
every page i turn i cried....i was really touched by what em ah gong did for me.....
it is by far the second best valentines day i've ever had....bothe thanks to my dear ah gong....
ehem...the first was hillarious....he wore the necklace for me the other way around....kakakakakaka.....^.^
as for me...i did not get him anything at that time yet....
but during chinese new year...i got him a dark blue tie.....
a really smart looking one...hehe...not much of a surprise though....hehe

today is chap goh meh day...that is also chinese calender's valentines day...
me ah gong said "everyday is our happy day"
i believe so too ah gong.....make it everyday our valentines day too baby?????
hehe......
neways....will not ruin this post complainin bout someone that is really pissing me off right now....
wil end this post then......

i love you always me ah gong.....
happy valentines day dearie....
xoxoxo
love always from me.....<3>

WHAT LIES BENEATH

Leave me alone, a feeling I dislike,

Do things alone, a task that I hate

Be by myself, something that I have to do

When you’re out; i feel alone

Been here snce then, stil isn’t fair

What do I do, when things go wrong

Cheating myself wont be able to last long

Talk myself in turns everything wrong

Wanting to do things, it isn’t possible

Being what I want to be seems impossible

Living life to the fullest; never in my dreams

Being stuck in a place I dislike: I’M IN IT

Be with someone you are comfortable with, I wonder

Don’t choose your friends; well is there a choice

Talk to that one you trust; ask again is there

When it comes to you, only me I’ll be there

Things go wrong, I blame myself

Think too much, and get frustrated

Just a stupid reason I’m wasting my time

But in the end: problems still have to get mended

You’re out, I’m here

Not thinking straight yet once again

Don’t mess things I tell myself

Don’t blow it convince myself , again, again and again

Think of ways to change myself

It hurts but I ‘m not gonna tell

Stay happy stay positif , I tell me

In the end it still is what it is to be